The Miracle of a Promise
If you pour yourself out for the
hungry and satisfy the desire of the afflicted,
then shall your light rise in the darkness and your gloom be as the noonday.
then shall your light rise in the darkness and your gloom be as the noonday.
And the Lord will guide you continually
and satisfy your desire in scorched places
and make your bones strong;
and satisfy your desire in scorched places
and make your bones strong;
and you shall be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring of water,
whose waters do not fail.
The words from Isaiah 58 washed over
my soul as I sat in a worship session at Thrive, a retreat for missionary women last week.
The phrases ‘satisfy your desire’ and ‘be like a well-watered garden' sat heavy
in my spirit. I grabbed my journal and noted down, “What does it look like for
me to be a well-watered garden with a spring that never fails? What does it
look like for Jesus to really satisfy my desires? To live out of abundance in
the midst of suffering?”
I continued to mull over it while the
speaker stood up and began to share. She started telling of how she was a piano
major at Moody Bible Institute and how being a piano performer had been such a
huge part of her identity her whole life. Then 3 months after graduating, she
moved with her new husband to Peru as missionaries. As you would imagine, there
is not an abundance of pianos in Peru, and she grieved the loss of her identity
and outlet for communication with Jesus.
As she shared her story, tears
poured down my cheeks, for in many ways her story is mine too. After graduating
from Moody with a degree in piano performance, I moved to Uganda 3 years ago
where there is also not an abundance of pianos. In fact, there are only 2
acoustic pianos that I know of in Mbale. 3 years ago, I resigned myself with
the thought that piano performance would just be one of the major sacrifices I
would have to make for my calling. So many times over the past 3 years, I have
mourned the loss of that part of my identity. I have grieved the loss of one of
my avenues of connection and communication with God. That grief was re-awakened
as I listened to her story, and silently weeping, I heard Jesus whisper, “Ask
me again.” Internally I cried out once again, “Jesus, would you please give me
a piano?” He reminded me then of a fellow missionary in Mbale who would be
moving to the States soon and who had a full-size electric piano. In the middle
of the session, I quickly sent off a Facebook message inquiring what their
plans were for the piano. Less than 10 minutes later, she wrote back that
although they had already sent their piano back to the States, the Church of
Christ team in Mbale had already decided to give me one of the only 2 upright
pianos in the area. In fact, they needed it moved out of the house it was currently
in quickly, and made plans to move it to my house in Mbale this week. What??? Had that
really just happened?? Had Jesus just so instantaneously answered my prayer and
GIVEN me a piano??? I was in disbelief. The rest of the session I continued to
weep unabated, but now not out of grief, but out of sheer joy and amazement at
the goodness of my God. He tenderly spoke and told me, “Melanie, I will go to
extraordinary measures to meet your desires. I will make you a well-watered
garden. From Me will flow a spring through you to satisfy the needs of the
nations.”
Wow Melanie, That is beautiful. Thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteIt really is beautiful, isn't it?!?! Jesus is just so much greater and better than I faithlessly expect Him to be most of the time.
DeleteHow wonderful, Melanie!!!
ReplyDeleteI just saw a picture of my roommate playing it in my house in Mbale. Totally made my day! :)
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